"You are a Gift"

You, I thought, were the one.

You, I thought, came along

To give me all that I needed.

I didn’t need what I thought.

You came to me unexpectedly.

You taught me how to be free

To learn to love myself and not to lean

On somebody else to make me me.

I am sorry for the way I took,

When you didn’t have much to give.

But still you stayed by me just like a friend,

So I’ll stand by you to the end.

Thank you for loving me.

Thank you giving me

A reason to trust, and so much to love.

You, my friend, are a gift from God above.

Sometimes I’d cry wondering

Why we couldn’t be more than friends.

Answers come in time. Sometimes they

Aren’t the ones for which we pray.

God knows what’s best when I don’t

I’m beginning to trust His will.

I am letting go, but not of you,

Only of the love we weren’t meant to… feel.

Thank you for loving me.

Thank you giving me

A reason to trust, and so much to love.

You, my friend, are a gift from God above.

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I know I have made this disclaimer before.... the songs don't have good meter because they are not poetry.... they are written set to music, and actually do flow rhythmically.... it just doesn't seem that way when you READ them.

Ummm...... I was really thinking about not posting this one. There are so many I don't post (and so many I wish I didn't post) because they are TOO raw or open or humbling or make me feel vulnerable... blah blah blah. But then I realized... maybe there are other people out there going through the same things..... having the same questions and feelings. And maybe something God has revealed to me through a song might be of enlightenment to someone who stumbles upon my blog. Most of what I write is for self-therapy and a personal outlet. But hey, maybe it can inspire someone or challenge them. If my fumbling attempts at expressing my emotion through writing make someone FEEL, they're worth sharing. I will make myself vulnerable and reveal my deeper emotions every time, if can potentially be a help to someone else.