Learning to be loved...

I am reading a book that is changing my life. I am learning, through this book and through some life lessons (which are actually a blessing in disguise) that God truely IS the Lover of my soul! He is not just a cliche religious metaphoric soothing thought or belief... He is showing Himself to me in some real and really needed ways, and teaching me to finally (And this is a first for me) accept the fact that He actually adores ME. Me!!! A super screwed up chic, by my definition, but somehow a beautiful flower in His eyes.

I am afraid for the future, and unsure of where it is going or how I will handle the hardships I am now facing.... BUT.... I have this hope that seems to be oozing from my pores... from my very soul... and it's His love! It's enough to cover a year full of stress and unknowns and hurt and anger.... it's enough to cover AND heal a lifetime of all of that.... SO... I am choosing to surrender to it. In doing so, my deepest hope is that I can love Him back just as hard as I can and bring His beautiful heart joy too... and maybe bless another soul or two along the way.

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"You Love Me"

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You are my rock and my fortress

My stronghold

You are my strength when

My strength does fold

I’m in the valley, feeling weak

You’re holding me and whispering

You love me

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It’s hard to feel that I deserve

A million chances Lord

But I am not rejecting this

I’ll take You at Your word….

You love me.

You love me.

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Trials and arrows and that come

Don’t last

How many times have You defeated

My past

This is just one of those tests

Will I

Surrender to defeat or

Finally Try

To let you love me.

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You rescue in me many ways

It’s hard to accept a love like this

Learning to lean is humbling, God,

But freedom to be loved is bliss.

You love me.

You love me.