I am presently being hit with multiple tidal waves of tribulation that no one but God is fully aware of. I have reached, yet again in my life, what feels like my absolute breaking point. I feel I cannot take one more wave, or I will surely drown. I cried out to God on my knees in deep despair this morning, knowing He is not the cause of any of this, but that He is walking with me through it. I asked Him for help out of what seems like a hopeless and desolate place, but then realized... the very fact that I am able to pray to Him is more valuable than anything I have lost or could ever gain! Prayer in and of itself is my rescue, even before the answers come. It is more valuable than escape, this hope, and more valuable than showers of blessings. Even if everyone and everything I love is ripped away from me, I will still maintain my Faith in Jesus Christ, who is God, my personal Savior and my very reason for existence. If all I have left is my Faith, that is enough. But I also have hope. And I have Love... eternal, Divine Love. I have everything.
He gave me a song a few minutes ago, and I am posting it now, though it is not complete. I am still working with some of the lyrics, and it doesn't yet have a title. I have the piano and melody down, I think. It is soothing. I am going to put what little energy I have left at this point into fine-tuning it, for Him. And for me. And for you.
I hope if you are presently sinking in depression, fear or hardship, you will read these lyrics and feel less alone. Because you are not ever alone. And you are never unloved.
~ Monica
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In the morning when I rise,
And You're the only sun I see...
In the darkest of the night,
And You're the only dream I dream...
In the quiet of my life,
And You're the only song I sing...
I have everything.
I have everything.
When I'm lost and tossed aside,
And no one hears my screams...
When my soul has grown too tired,
And I'm ripping at the seams...
When the rest have closed their eyes,
You never turn from me.
I have everything.
I have everything.
I have Jesus.
I have Jesus.
I have Jesus.
And that's enough.
In the desert, cold and tired,
You faced the enemy.
In the garden where you cried,
No one stayed with Thee.
On a cross of hate and lies,
You gave blood and life so we...
We'd have everything.
You broke the curse, rewrote the shame,
Into a song of hope. You came and saved... me.
You saved eternity.
You changed everything.
You are everything.
I have Jesus.
I have Jesus.
I have Jesus.
And that's enough.
