Sometimes I think I’ll never learn
Makes me think I might enjoy the burn
This time I am trying to be real
Maybe this time I’ll finally heal
Dark eyes warm smile and frigid heart
Made me think that I just might impart
Some small piece of solace to your soul
Trying in my way to make us both whole
But mending you was not my call
The sweat and tears didn’t heal me at all
So giving in seemed the thing to do
It wasn’t that I gave up on you.
Codependent habits always drag me down
All the love I gave could not turn you around
Portraits of a girl I wanted desperately to be
Faded long before you left me.
Tonight I feel patience creeping in
Covering over all of my past sin
Making me feel as if the day will dawn
forging through darkness til I see the sun
Wonder where you are in this crazy world
Probably drowning sorrows with a girl
None of it matters because I am through
Searching for ways to get through to you.
Nights are the hardest time to be alone
Feeling a stranger in my own home
But I refuse to succumb to self-pity
And I am taking steps to alterate me.
I hope tonight wherever you are
You know peace is never very far
Reach up and know that if you’ll let go
Serenity will wash over you.