Wednesday, October 04, 2017

A prayer from a Broken Heart

You are our peace,
When we don't understand.
Beauty from ashes
Are at Your command.
We give You this ache.
We call on Your name.
Sweet Jesus, bring healing.
Bring peace down like rain.



I love you, my sweet, beautiful, talented, big-hearted, amazing cousin.  You will be so dearly missed!  May God hold you in His very arms and hug you tight. 💔


Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Hurts to Grow

Isn't that what I need?
I've been waiting here,

From the falling world,
Threatening to drown
This girl.

But maybe I was meant
to sink
To the bottom of everything
I think,
And drown in the softest Love
I'll ever know.
I'm learning.
Sometimes it hurts
to grow.

Teach us everything.
We don't need to fly
To see.

Strength comes
When you lay down your might.
You don't have to fight
For peace.

So, maybe this time
We bleed.
Wounds heal.
Scars mark history.
Even though sometimes it hurts
To grow,
We're learning.
We're stronger than
We know.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

Love called you away....

It was Love that brought you to us,
All too soon Love called you away.
We will waste no time with "Why?"
There's nothing left here but Faith.

How can we whisper goodbye,
When we never even got to see your face?
How we wish we could have held you tight!
Now you're cradled; warm in Mercy's embrace.

You're an Angel with soft, brand new wings.
You are Home, where pain cannot touch.
We want you to know, precious little one,
We love you. We love you very much.

Holy Father, kiss our baby for us.
Let him know just how treasured he is.
On a day not too far we'll sing to him in our arms.
Endless thanks, God, for our cherished gift.

Monica Wagner • 2/27/17

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Clumsy Heart Thoughts

There aren't words,
There are no smells or tastes,
or anything tangible
To relay my clumsy heart thoughts.
All I can do is worry and cry and pray,
And wait, wait, wait,
For a distinctly dissimilar day.
I must state what is obvious
Only to myself...
I am truly, greatly grateful
For my precious blessings.
But, this aching affliction
Makes my smile look
Upside down.
How can I not note
The concern in their eyes,
As they lie and say everything is fine?
No, it's not.
It is not.
And my heart thoughts race,
And stumbling, run away with me,
Before finally fading to numb,
Leaving me behind
Gasping for breath
In a deep pool of tears.
What do I do now?
The question is moot.
I know I need to "do"
Just be.
I will stifle my cries.
I will squeeze shut my eyes.
I will be still.
I will hope.
I WILL hope.
I'll be still and I'll hope,
For what else is there to live for?

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Morning Prayer

Lord, you know my heart.  You know my past, present and future.  You know best, and I trust You.  Help me to only follow your way and truth as I navigate through this day.  Grant me a spirit of love... grace... help me to reflect You in all I do and say.  When fears arise,  I will claim your comfort and peace.  When negative thoughts arise, I will claim your joy.  When hardships arise, I will claim Your victory.   For my husband and children, I ask Your protection and favor.  Grant our family Your wisdom.  Your will be done in our lives, not our own.  Please, show us your will in every situation we encounter, big and small, and grant us the wisdom and strength to follow.  Through valleys and on top of mountains, God, I declare Your ways are higher and greater, and I will follow You.  Thy will be done, only.

Sunday, January 31, 2016

"What If Each Kiss?"

What if each kiss were more than a momentary,
Blissful break from being too far away,
But rather, each kiss continued for multiple hours of
Perfect normalcy; and the brief pause from kissing
Lasted only long enough for Lover’s to miss each other
Before resuming the basic, compulsory act of
Breathing in each other’s air,
Body to body, heart to heart and lip to lip?
That is how it feels to me each and every time
You look into my eyes, or smile, or breathe,
Or simply exist… or kiss me.  This how it feels:
Your kisses are like air when I am suffocating,
Salve when it burns, and an unquenchable flame
In a dark world, filling me with hope and warmth and life.
It is not a question.  It is my heart pondering merely
The delightful necessity of your sweet kiss.

                             ~for my FiancĂ©~


Thursday, November 12, 2015

"All the Colors of Happiness"

Finally, a poem!  So inspired right now.  Life is very, VERY good.   <3

All the Colors of Happiness

MG ~ 11/12/15



Once in an infrequent while,

An exceptional rainbow catches your eye,

And rips your heart and head out of

The fog of the mundane.

And you find yourself in awe;

Captivated completely.

Its brightness and beauty

Are so much more vivid

Than any you’ve ever seen before.

In this moment of epiphany,

The storm is forgotten.

Every dark cloud.

Every raindrop.

And all you are left with is a feeling of hope,

The promise of peace,

And a heart full to overflowing

With the all the colors of happiness.