"Castle Heart"

There are certain parts of me,

Specific rooms

Left purposefully untouched...

Whole corridors in a dark castle,

Abandoned.

The locks on the doors

Have keys that were thrown away

Years ago.

I have for so long feared

The contents.

The memories.

The feelings.

And so, not only did I not enter,

I willed myself to

Forget.

But I, the involuntary Master,

Am making some very big changes

Around here.

I am bravely walking about…

Venturing farther with each new day.

I am dusting relics,

Clearing cobwebs.

Flinging open

Heavy, musty curtains

And letting rays of sunlight

Spill in,

Gloriously devastating the darkness.

Spring cleaning has begun

For the first time ever,

And I am inspired

To unclutter,

Unlock,

Unhide.

Some of those dank and lightless spaces

Do frighten me…

But I will break the seals

Anyway.

I will enter at any cost!

Darkness and fear,

And avoidance and denial,

Only exist in the absence

Of light and bravery,

And clarity and truth.

I am the sole proprietor,

The queen,

Of my castle heart…

And I am making this home

A place I want to be.

mg ~ 5/19/14