"Again the Fool"

Here I am again the fool
Drowning in an empty pool
Choking on a promise made
Burning in the bed I laid.

Fallen down again it seems
Broken heart and broken dreams
I've come to expect this fate
Love has always made me wait.

Sometimes I think it's my fault
For never feeling loved at all
If I was more lovable
Love would never let me go.

But wallowing in self pity
Defeats the quest for serenity
No one can make me happy
Joy is a choice. It's up to me

And so these dreams I'll let go of
And drop the pursuit of true love
And Look upon the brighter side
And choose to grow and not to hide

I will lift my head up high
I will not let myself cry
I am tired of all the tears
I think that I'll be numb for years