"Silence"

The quiet I yearned for

Has become

Deafening.

I don’t want to hear

What you have to say.

I don’t want to hear

My heartbeat.

I plug my ears

And close my eyes;

But the voices,

The images,

The memories,

Do not fade.

I don’t want to feel,

But I wish I were not

So numb.

I want care

Without hurting,

But my heart only knows

All or nothing.

And I cannot wonder

Anymore.

So it’s off.

Passion dissipates

And fades to gray.

I wish I could dream

In color, again.

I wish I could scream

Or cry

Or smile,

But this night’s silence

Speaks.